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read between the lines
relek lah, brudda the weeks since the last post have been something like a slight spiral downward at worst. frustration set in because it just seems like i was doing much better when i was in my own little world, without the risk of anyone hurting me (deeply). then i go back to civilisation and it's like...ouch.thank god for the last friend standing. i might've looked through life with polarised glasses (the transitions kind) these recent years and felt -- often -- that nobody cares, but if there's one thing i've realised, it's that god has always supplied a friend in need. so i've abused that privilege, but hey, nobody ever learnt without making mistakes. work's been adding to the stress, but thank god the worst week i've had (on financial records) has already passed. if anything, i've come out humbled...and worried for the future. but i will try to relax, as what said friend has just exhorted me to do (the only other person i heard say 'i think you really need to relax' was my favourite, but alas short-lived, colleague). relax when i set aside time with god and i end up spacing out... relax when i plan to keep ahead at work and i end up firefighting instead... relax when i don't get what i want, or it seems like it'll end up that way... but things seem to be panning out so far, starting yesterday when i walked out into the night with renewed resolve. i didn't panic and i got what i wanted in the little things. so tentatively i might be able to progress to the major things in life...and get the hang of this whole 'relax' concept. |
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