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read between the lines
my life today tired. rushing for last-minute work, because my mind was preoccupied with something right after work and it did not leave my mind til i fell asleep the minute i got home. i thot i was gonna pray awhile while lying down but i guess lack of sleep made me drift off. when i woke up it was 12.30am and i had not bathed or done anything concerning work.work today was...well, god is kind and merciful, that's all i can say. but i still hate the place...i dunno, i jus hate the corporate look, y'noe? i will NEVER work in an office with cubicles...it's jus not me. and today i placed more scrutiny on every femals clone in the office world...and i was mentally trying to compare myself to them and see if there was any difference between us. like i said, i hate being a clone, i hate following the crowd if everyone's all the same....but i realised i was different after all. all those office ladies....even if they've got long hair it's all rebonded. and their pants are way tighter than me...actually i rebelled, cos even though it's office wear material, it doesn't cling to my legs and since i'm a hipster kinda person it's not so high up the waist. and the major difference is i guess they're generally shorter than me. this was pointed out to me when i had to hunt for office sandals yesterday. i was looking for something without heels (cos unlike those...i shall jus call them "ladies" instead of what i feel like calling them....unlike those ladies, i do not pay to suffer) or with as little height on the heels as possible, at the popular malls in jb but i realised again what i had realised long ago....those types of sandals (din't want shoes cos my feet wud stink) are sold for the best interests of the market....and the market, referring to females in the general population, consists mostly of short asian women with really small feet. which is partly why i wear slippers that more often look like they're meant for guys (the other reason's the heels lah). everywhere i went, if i found the sandals i wanted, they did not have the size. i found i was a size 9 or 42, but usually they only had up to size 8 or 40...and even if they did have the correct size, the make of the sandal was meant for tiny feet....as in the sandal looked like the fella who made it was trying to save money on leather so he made the base smaller. and that can be painful, esp when i have to walk so much every day....imagine my feet sticking out and getting painful cos the stupid base is so small. yeah, i have broad feet....i guess. so i got two pairs...i tried the first pair today, which looked more presentable but it was a size too small, and i realised it really hurts after so much walking cos the base is smaller than i thought, so i had the above problem, and it squashed my toes together so after a while my fifth toe felt like blistering and so did my bunyan (yes, i have a bunyan. not nice to look at but, hey, at least it stands out from the crowd...haha). and i hated the awful sound it made when i was rushing down escalators or stairs. i sounded like those really annoying "ladies" i cursed at (in my mind) whom i meet often at the customs everyday. ok lah u got me. in my mind "ladies" is replaced with the title for a female dog. gonna try the second pair tomoro, which fits my feet better. see how.... |
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