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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

teen angst

fri, sat, sun, mon....was putting this song on playback and the track after that....there's something in this song reminiscent of teen angst...and even though it's not a loud song, at the chorus the singer "shouts"...and it's almost like he's shouting for me, shouting out the words i felt like saying, expressing the angst and anger and "i don't wanna care anymore cos i wanna run away from it and not talk about it" feelings inside my head....

btw splender sounds a whole lot like vertical horizon (the band who sang "everything you want"), and both are relly good to listen to...not too loud, not too soft, definitely not boring. i finally got hold of this album, "halfway down the sky", after so many years of hunting for it and finding it sold out...like the first switchfoot album, i got it at borders sg. the cover's really cool, it shows what looks like a fallen angel, not the cherubic angels you see that look like babies, but a shape of a man, with some hint of wings, and a few arrows shot through. in a way that's what we are, rite? fallen.

Yeah, Whatever
by SPLENDER

And you're primitive
And you're cynical to me
And I chewed down on the bit
And almost swallowed it

You sit all alone with your color TV
Your hair starts to glisten
In spite of the fleas
We don't have to stay friends
Let's pretend to be enemies

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever makes it beautiful
Yeah, whatever leaves you satisfied
'Cuz I'm out of time
For now

And you're paranoid
As you look me up and down
And I'm soaked in gasoline
Mud and ice cream

You sit by the phone
With your tongue hanging out
You cradle the flies in the back of your mouth
We don't have to stay friends
Let's pretend to be enemies

Damned if you do
What if you don't
Damned if you do
What if you won't

You must be aware what you're
Doing to me
We sunk like a stone on a rock
In the sea

We don't have to stay friends
(Not for very long)
We don't have to stay friends
(Just because you're gone)

You get what you want 'cuz you won't let it die

Yeah, whatever makes you happy
Yeah, whatever leaves you insecure
Yeah, seems to break you down

'Cuz I'm out of time
But I'm feeling fine.

yes, it does relate to me. another clue if you will. no further comments.

as for today, i was in no mood to listen to music. i was busy dozing off or sleeping at any chance i got. and the fact that the office is so cold doesn't help either...there were points in time in the morning and rite after lunch where i found myself just struggling to stay awake. but thank god i was finally left alone for lunch, unlike yesterday's "orientation", so i got to sit down and pray....and fall asleep after that til lunch break ended. i also overslept in the bus, ended up at marsiling mrt. thank god they have the 950 now or else i'd have to walk to customs, or to the next nearest bus stop.