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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

golden

no prizes for guessing where i was tonight. actually that sentence doesn't even make sense. i'm half asleep and i know i should be sleeping now cos i got an early lecture. anyway i thank god for the starry night tonight and for giving me the space to sit outside and stare at his creation, basking in his peace and in thoughts of prayer to him.

lord, although you said in your Word your love can never be fully known here, i want to feel how broad and how deep, how long and how wide your love is. (i can't remember the bible reference but this whole sentence was a paraphrase from one of paul's letters).

help me to love being alone with you, lord. i want to feel your love and your comfort and reassurance that you're there for me. i want to claim my security in you as a child of god. bring to mind your promises for this daughter of yours. help me to truly feel and know what it means to be your child.

and give me the strength to overcome evil with good. and the ability to control my anger when my parents provoke me and give all the hurts covered beneath to you.

[on another tangent, i thank you i'm not living in the holocaust era and i thank you for your grace for sparing me from that..everything else seems to pale in comparison. and even though my head has been filled with horrific pictures and info from the holocaust for the past week due to my school project, i thank you for sparing me from bad dreams and keeping me safe from nightmares.]

and lastly, (but not the least), keep me safe from the evil one and his tricks. help me not to fall for his mind games and keep me close by your side. fill me with your spirit of power, love and self-control (reference: timothy).

amen.

Golden

by SWITCHFOOT

She's alone tonight with a bitter cup and
She's undone tonight, she's all used up
She's been staring down the demons
who've been screaming she's
just another so and so, another so and so

You are golden, you are golden child
You are golden, don't let go, don't let go tonight

There's a fear that burns like trash inside
And your shame the curse that burns your eyes
You've been hiding in the bedroom hoping
this isn't how the story has to go
It's not the way it goes, it's your book now

You are golden, you are golden child
You are golden, don't let go, don't let go tonight

You're a lonely soul in a land of broken hearts
Your far from home is a perfect place to start
So this final verse is a contradiction and
the more we learn, the less we know

We've been talking about a feeling
we both know inside but couldn't find the words
I couldn't write this verse
I've seldom been so sure about anything before

You are golden, you are golden child
You are golden, don't let go, don't let go tonight

This world is a dead man down
Every breath is a fading crown we wear
like some debilitated king
The earth spins and the moon goes round
The green comes from the frozen ground
And everything will be made new again
like freedom in spring
(Like freedom in spring)