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read between the lines
him and anger but back to the dog bite, during the point after i got bitten i started thinking how it's funny that all of a sudden, since last year, my dog decides to bit me way more often than usual, compared to the previous years where i've only had one of two bites from him. why is he getting so temperamental this past year, i wonder. i know he thinks a lot, i saw him in a wistful, half-distracted state of mind in front of the door grill today (even my waving a finger at him or calling him didn't snap him out of his thoughts immediately) and i've seen in the past how very human he is....and no, i'm not joking, i'm totally serious as incredible as this sounds.and i wonder, what goes through that doggy mind of his. this thought just came to me...what if a dog whisperer spoke to him..what would she find out? he must be biting easily for a reason...meaning he must be pretty unhappy with the home that he's in. unhappier this past year than usual. already i can bring to mind all the nasty things my brother has done to him, and how i always have to defend him from my brother, whose main goal in life seems to be to disturb and irritate the shit out of the people around him. me, my mom, him (the dog i'm talking about)... but oh well. maybe he's unhappy about being scolded whenever he sneaks out of the house. i saw my mom screaming and shouting at him after he started pawing at the gate to be let in for straying out. immediately he attacked his brother in anger...which is what i used to do last time when my dad beat me up real bad, as evil as it seems to inflict pain on others. so i kind of understood that...but the worst thing is my mom started taking a new stick, a pokier, sharper one, to seek him out and beat him. finally i got her to stop, after he snarled, bit the stick a few times and got hit himself. maybe. or maybe it could be that he's just as unhappy as i am about the current evil that has befallen us all...this stupid construction. maybe he hates the dust and rubble that collects outside the house that gives him dusty paws and worsens his sinus / allergy problem. maybe he's so pissed with the space he's confined to, now that he can't roam all over the house like he used to, which might mean a lot to him since he's the leader of the pack and all. maybe that's why he gets double angry when my mom scolds him when all he's trying to do is find a place to space out, kind of like the way i try to find hideouts to retreat to and my mom can't understand why i can't just retreat at home. but then again he bit me way before construction started too. or maybe he's just jealous when i play with his siblings. jealous even though i always try my best to spend equal time with them. there has to be a reason. dogs don't just bite like that, especially if they are sane most of the time. somehow i lost his trust along the way, i can see that. because if he still trusted me, he would be okay with me touching his fur no matter how many times i do it, the way his siblings are. i don't know the reason. all i know is, i'm tired, i'll stop speculating, and i'll just try my very hardest not to touch him anymore. which is kinda hard when he comes bounding up to me with the rest or when he tries to get my attention by standing up on his hind legs and using his front paws to paw me when i'm petting his more affable, gentle brother. yawn. it's been a dog's day. --edit. it turns out the first guess was the correct answer. now i understand, i must be careful when handling him. |
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