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read between the lines
lost in an ironic twist of fate, i might get to work and live on my own after all. it looks like i might not be going to uni. nope, i didn't get the confirmation yet, but unofficially...i've been told through reliable sources.you know, it's funny. about a year before this, i started a journey. a journey of discovering where i was supposed to go after third year. i even wrote it in my blog (it's in here somewhere). i (and others) prayed for direction and discernment in trying to figure out where to go after third year. and then somewhere along the way i fell in love with a course, a course from uni. and i thought, maybe, god has answered my prayers and this is the discernment he's given me. and now, i find out it's 99% not the case. which means god did not answer my prayer one year ago. even though i prayed constantly from then until now that i might know what on earth i must do after i leave poly. i'm still in shock. i didn't have a backup plan. i didn't even bother looking for a job. which leaves me...lost. stranded. confused. and wondering and wishing god would just boom his loud voice into my ear and say "this is where you are supposed to go!" because knowing is better than not knowing at all. pray for me if you read this and feel moved to. i just lost my appetite to surf the web today. |
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