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Sunday, December 03, 2006

wasted

people get wasted on all sorts of things.

i, meanwhile, knowing alcohol is off-limits, tend to get wasted on two things: music and the internet. and with the combined power of both tonight, i am extra extra drunk.

when i get drunk, i start to lose my inhibitions -- it's something i can't help after i reach a certain point of no return -- and experience a substantial failure in the self-control department (hence the fact that i can't help myself). which is why i'm still stuck here in front of the screen even though it's late.

sounds just like an alcoholic to me.

Better Than Drugs
by SKILLET

Feel Your every heartbeat
Feel You on these empty nights
Calm the ache, stop the shakes
You clear my mind

You’re my escape
From this messed-up place
‘Cause You let me forget
You numb my pain

How can I tell You
just all that You are,
what You do to me?

You’re better than drugs
Your love is like wine
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ to get me high

You’re better than drugs
Addicted for life
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ on to get me high

Feel You when I’m restless
Feel You when I cannot cope
You’re my addiction, my prescription,
My antidote

You kill the poison
Ease the suffering
Calm the rage when I’m afraid
To feel again

You’re better than drugs
Your love is like wine
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ to get me high

You’re better than drugs
Addicted for life
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ on to get me high

How can I tell you
just all that you are,
what you do to me?

Feel Your every heartbeat
Feel You on these empty nights
You’re the strength of my life

You’re better than drugs
Your love is like wine
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ to get me high

You’re better than drugs
Addicted for life
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ on to get me high

(Feel Your every heartbeat)
(Feel You on these empty nights)
Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You comin’ on to get me high

Feel You comin’ on so fast
Feel You come to get me high