Recording my journey of trying to make it through life and find God, joy, purpose and meaning along the way...basically in search of eternal life here on earth.

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Tuesday, February 05, 2008

disconnected

i just suddenly felt insecure tonight...it's not difficult to try. i am told to cheer up and be bright, yet i cannot help but feel that i would be untrue to myself not to say the things i really feel for the moment, negative as they are.

i felt...lost. so disconnected from the human race.

there is a lie that constantly permeates my mind...and it is against this lie that i must work to affirm myself in god's truth and where i stand in His eyes. why i am not fully convinced of the truth i still do not know.

Head Over Heels (In This Life)
by SWITCHFOOT

Head over here and take me
Head over heels and aching
When I told you I was Yours
I was Yours

In this life, You’re the one place I call home
In this life, You’re the feeling I belong
In this life, You’re the flower and the thorn
You’re everything that’s fair in love and war

I’m coming down like a gunshot
In all these battles I’ve fought
You’re the mark I’m aiming for
I was Yours

In this life, You’re the one place I call home
In this life, You’re the feeling I belong
In this life, You’re the flower and the thorn
You’re everything that’s fair in love and war

In love and war, in love and war
Head over heels, head over heels

In this life I’m stubborn to the core
In this life I’ve been burning after more
We both know what these open arms are for
You’re everything that’s fair
In this life, You’re my only one

In this life, You’re my only one
In this life, You’re my only one
In this life, You’re my only one

In this life, You’re the one place I call home
In this life, You’re the feeling I belong
In this life, You’re the flower and the thorn
You’re everything that’s fair in love and war