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read between the lines
dead energizer battery that's my nickname on msn today. dead energizer battery: going, going, (almost) gone. seriously that's exactly how i feel today. been feeling tired and wearied since thursday began, and all those last-min meetings and schedules popped up. "i'm too shattered to do anything", anyway (it's from duran duran's one of those days).but today was more exhaustive than yesterday for me. cos i had even less sleep than the nite before, and slightly more things to do today than yesterday....and if there's one thing i've noticed, lack of sleep tends to make me more prone to bouts of depression and moodiness, besides being physically depleted of energy. and yeah, i had much more of that today....lost count of the times i had to pull myself aside n pray until i felt better / stronger. and in really bad cases of extreme sleep deprivation, it affects the expression on my face too....i just can't, literally cannot smile, cannot look happy, no matter how hard i try to twist n contort my face. my face muscles just....feel too tired to smile too...and i end up having this look which, from feedback from the past, makes me look angry, which i'm totally not. i'm just tired. so i had a lot of explaining to do, eheh. but my face muscles did manage to relax though, and finally be able to smile, when my friends who were my friends (if u get what i mean) made me laugh. yeah, but the minute i was left alone, the face started to drag and pull itself down....and that look of, in actual truth, tiredness, would come up again. honestly i don't know how else i had the physical strength to do all i had to do these 2 days, than through the empowerment of the holy spirit. i really think i would have died from exhaustion if the holy spirit didn't sustain me with energy and zest that came (seemingly) from out of nowhere. and it is in tired moments like these when i just close my eyes and turn up the volume to the music i'm listening to..which is, not so loud cos if it is, it'll aggravate my near-headache, woozy, i-need-peace-and-quiet feeling. and today it just happened to be oasis for me. was closing my eyes, resting my head against the wall with the headphones blasting peace through my ears in the library for quite some time, while at the same time talking to god or letting my thoughts pass through slowly. DON'T LOOK BACK IN ANGER by Oasis Slip inside the eye of your mind Don’t you know you might find A better place to play You said that you’ve never been (sounds like ’bean’ in order to rhyme w/’seen’) But all the things that you’ve seen They slowly fade away So I’ll start a revolution from my bed ’cuz you said the brains I had went to my head Step outside, summertime’s in bloom Stand up beside the fireplace Take that look from off your face You ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out And so, sally can wait She knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by Her soul slides away But don’t look back in anger I heard you say Take me to the place where you go Where nobody knows If it’s not our day Please don’t put your life in the hands Of a rock and roll band You'll throw it all away I’m gonna start a revolution from my bed ’cuz you said the brains I had went to my head Step outside, ’cuz summertime’s in bloom Stand up beside the fireplace Take that look from off your face ’cuz you ain’t ever gonna burn my heart out And so, sally can wait She knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by My soul slides away But don’t look back in anger I heard you say So, sally can wait She knows it’s too late as we’re walking on by Her soul slides away But don’t look back in anger I heard you say So, sally can wait She knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by My soul slides away But don’t look back in anger Don’t look back in anger I heard you say At least not today. |
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