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Tuesday, June 28, 2005

what would jesus do?

my written test is tomoro. got 6 movies i haven't seen that are coming out for the test. can i depend on reviews alone? we'll see. last week was a procrastination of sorts. i think complacency sets in when i least expect it. i try to be alert spiritually most of the day, but then at certain moments in time i'll sluggishly let the enemy slip in and when the day's almost over and i'm reviewing how it went, the conscience of the holy spirit will prick me and convict me of the areas in which i'm falling short of god's standard. i mean, i understand that everyone falls short of the glory of god and we are saved by grace alone instead of works. but that doesn't mean i should disregard all strivings to improve.

can't remember where, but it's somewhere in the bible (i think one of them's in ephesians) where it mentions that god has set to each a standard for us to achieve. and if i scrutinise my life, i realise i am slowly losing grip of the intergrity and determined inner will that clung to me. i must stop slipping and hold firm but sometimes i just feel too sluggish to.

but cunctation is just one thing. i also don't like how i've reacted this past "while", or frame of time, if you call it, towards a certain situation. i've always been able to relate to the plight of the unfairly-accused, the wrongly-judged, because i've been the target of those attacks before. then why oh why have i been stepping into the shoes of the very people i so hated because of their partial sagacity? it shames me to the core now i've gone against my own principles, or rather god's. i mean, i did have a gnawing feeling in my gut that something was clearly wrong, but instead i allowed myself to be led on, through the weeks, by another as the blind leads the blind.

i still remember that old proverb among the list of proverbs i had to memorise in primary school:
Fools walk where angels fear to tread.
i think i might end up in the wrong path if i do not turn into the opposite direction. but i'm not exactly sure how to do it. there are many wires intertwined in this metal mess.

besides, i have a test to memorise. and several film reviews to read up.

p.s. i was never really keen on this song cos i found it too heavy on the bass (or there's just something that makes it sound heavy) and personally, whirlwind by skillet from the same cd sounds so much better on the ears...but the words here instead do mean something.

What Would Jesus Do?
by BIG TENT REVIVAL

Some people just want to survive
And I don't know about you
But I am alive

Lately it seems
That I need a hand
In a fallen world
I just want to stand

What would Jesus do, walkin' in my shoes,
Workin' at my job and goin' to my school?
And I hear people say, "Jesus is the way"
I believe and that is why I'm asking you
What would Jesus do?

And as we all know
Life can be tough
And all that we need is love -- sweet love

So where do we go?
Well here's what I see
To change my world
I gotta change me

What would Jesus do, walkin' in my shoes,
Workin' at my job and goin' to my school?
And I hear people say, "Jesus is the way"
I believe and that is why I'm asking you
What would Jesus do?

Sometimes choices don't seem black and white
And they can leave you black and blue

What would Jesus do, walkin' in my shoes,
Workin' at my job and goin' to my school?
And I hear people say, "Jesus is the way"
I believe and that is why I'm asking you
What would Jesus do?

What would Jesus do?
He'd give His life for you
And if you follow Him
You'll give your life to Him

What would Jesus do?
He'd give His life for you
And if you follow Him
You'll give your life to Him

Shine on, shine on your follower
Shine on, shine on your follower