Thursday, September 01, 2005

post-fast

was too tired after all n i'm not exactly free right now, so this is what i reposted from my friendster blog (the modified version):

it's hari merdeka...and i am literally merdeka from fasting! i've surprisingly made it through 40 days without copping out. am so unusually ecstatic in my current state because besides making it through the fast, the bulk of my worries for my assignments have been cleared up tonight...and it's the last week of school!

so the fast was...i would say meaningful. a time of having my (spiritual) eyes opened to new things. thanks to those who've prayed for me...initially it was tough to pull away, but over the days i lost the temptation to break fast..hehe. one good thing about this fast is that i suddenly found i had a lot of free time on my hands...time that could be better spent with god away from these distractions.

i'm indeed glad to have been able to see things from a different perspective (one from above) throughout this duration of time. am slowly beginning to understand the purpose of the furnace from the viewpoint of the fire-tender.

have learnt that "pursuing righteousness" (2 tim 2:22) aka. focusing on god can be a hard task, but in those moments when one is able to achieve it, the inner peace and the "things" that are added onto those who seek Him first (matt 6:33) that accompany it is...quite something, something that's so hard to find in this world but when you find it, even if you lose it again, it's worth holding on to (or trying to catch ahold of again).