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read between the lines
desperate bleedcut till it hurts soul split open numb to the sting tears in the eyes. "You know ah, you are actually very blessed lei. get to go through so many sufferings...sure abundant fruits at the end wan." oh really? well feel free to have them whole cos i don't need any of them. i don't want any of them. you can have all the sufferings you want -- go ahead and take my share. i'm hurting and it's hard to do what a person's gotta do. just because i know what's wrong with me doesn't mean the problem's solved. will i do you proud lord? will you be proud of me in the end? how badly would i have failed you? and how many times would i have let the self take over? i know the fruits will come. i know. i believe in Your promises. but i...i just hate the transition time. i feel at times like i can't do it. like i just can't win. or overcome like You asked me to. and my patience is like, so thin. Your strength right? You will win the battle for me right? but what do i do while waiting for You to close the chapter? You put all these feelings in me and they're like poison to my soul. Jesus, come, come heal my hurts. heal my heart and restore me. i can't see the end of the tunnel. i don't know how long i can go on. and sometimes it seems such a lonely road even though i know you're there somewhere in the dark. reach for my hand, lord, cos i'm scared and i need You to go through it with me. reach for me lord, i keep losing grip. wipe away my tears and be everything that i need You to be. "Help me to see Everything fall into place Wake me from dreaming No more deceiving Break these chains..." - Free, Corrinne May |
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