Recording my journey of trying to make it through life and find God, joy, purpose and meaning along the way...basically in search of eternal life here on earth.

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I WROTE THIS
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Friday, February 03, 2006

masked

Sad Clown
by JARS OF CLAY

Say how's the weather?
So I look out the window
To brighten my soul, but I can't control the rain
that keeps falling

Smile on the outside
that never comes in
A comedy, mystery, irony, tragedy
So I scream, "let the show begin"

You break me open
Turn on the light
Stumble inside
with me, with me

Do I entertain you?
Do I preoccupy you
with my wit to cover this lie?
Are you mesmerized?

Do you think me faithful,
do you think me a clown?
I picked out this shirt, I put on this hat
I wore all this paint
just for you

You break me open
Turn on the light
Stumble inside
with me, with me


--
was i happy?
yes.

was i actually happy?
no.

it's not that i lied, i just didn't show it.
no, actually someone who knew me well would've known.
sometimes songs say it best.

Finding Me
by VERTICAL HORIZON

I don't think you notice
When you see my face
I guess you're waiting
To spin me around again

Wheels I guess are turning
Somewhere inside my head
I know that this is
Deeper than you get

But you're coming back again
You don't mean to waste my time
But you're coming back so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering

Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine here
Finding me, me

I've already given
up on getting through
I never question
Who I'm talking to

Oh, so much for nothing
But nothing means so much
I know it's touching
But I've been out of touch

And it's all that I can do
I'm a sight for my sore eyes
But it's all I am so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering

Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine here
Finding me, me

I don't think you notice
When I can't reach out
I guess you're waiting
On somebody else again

Oh, so much for talking
It's all been said before
I'm hearing something
but I wish you'd just say more

But you're going off again
When I try to just hold on
But you're going off so

Don't tell me
How to be
'Cause I like some suffering

Don't ask me
What I need
I'm just fine here
Finding me, me