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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

further comments

okay obviously (or not) there is more to it than what i wrote below. while i have forgiven this 30-year-old already, my mind has started to focus on the person whom she told to that caused the most harm from listening to her and believing i was everything she said i was. and yes, said person is, a female.

i really thought we had it sorted out a long time ago...and i thought we both forgave each other after that. but apparently she still continues to hold that wrong opinion of me, the opinion of which came from a 30-year-old who barely knows me and of which i defended and sought to clarify.

and it just so happens it has to be revealed in the form of a very important document which she wrote in, a document so important that it could prove detrimental to the party receiving this information. the more i thought about it, the more familiar this scenario sounded.

it did not take long that this strongly resembled that defamation case exercise i was studying for last night. i could practically draft out all the 3 elements of defamation under libel and justify all elements of why the person in my situation has defamed me, because she fits all 3 of them perfectly, and pass my exam if this came out.

and for the record, what she wrote suggested i am socially defective. do you know how demoralising and untrue that is, not to mention how defamatory it is and how, like in defamation cases, this could "damage my reputation"?

okay i am getting too into my studies now. i must let it drop! especially since school officially ended with the culmination of today's exam, which i am pretty sure i am not going to fail. speaking of which, the end of school today was a happy affair. i was supposed to write about that today. but instead i got stuck on this and the past this person dug up. i really thought we were fine with each other already.

to tell the truth, i honestly feel more hurt than angry that she still thinks i'm someone which i already told her i'm not. i was reading through my last post and stuff, and it might seem like my statements were written in anger but they're not. that's the thing with writings i guess...they don't capture the facial expression and the tone of which a person would say it in. and this i need to clarify.

if i were saying what i've typed out in a conversational manner, i would not be bursting forth with wrath and loads of spittle coming out of my mouth, even though it could seem that way at certain points of intensity in my writings. rather, i would be saying this in an incredulous tone, with either a hurt expression on my face or a look of stunned shock.