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Saturday, November 06, 2004

blogger has a prob

if u noe me, u'll noe i always have a lot of things to say every single day and i wud like to blog....but i haven't written here all week becos:
-i seem to have a prob logging into blogger. i'll click the thingy and wait for like 10 mins n the page will display the words "internal server error".
-when i rush back i wanna sleep quick, so trying and trying again and seeing the minutes tick away is not sensible. i realise that even 5 mins means 5 precious mins of sleep for me. n some nites i'm jus too tired that i go straight to sleep after i do what i have to do
oh well. everything on earth has its faults. machines, people, things....they all fail us at some point or another. sad to say, but it's the "anomaly" principle in the matrix kinda thing....a law designed by the Creator that every thing on this earth is and must be flawed. sad but true. ok. enuff of that. i thot i was over that already.

btw a question someone asked me many years ago comes to mind rite now. last time one of the people i spoke with constantly got rather frustrated at me because i called that person the day right after i last called. so in frustration the friend asked me, "jessica, what went on in your life yesterday?" and there was silence on my end cos i was wondering which event to tell my friend since i cud think of so many....but the person took the silence as a lack of thoughts and said "see, nothing right?" trying to prove a point, the point being that i can't call someone the day after we last spoke because there's nothing new to talk about.

man, that person was so wrong. and that person so doesn't know me, or the meaning of life, or the fact that every day brings a new thing to talk about, a new event. i mean, even if i do the same routine thing every day the unpredictability of life allows me to experience new incidents along the way every day. even my thoughts are different everyday. i don't think of the exact same thing everyday.

but whatever. guess that person either looks at things through a tunnel vision or that person just plain couldn't stand my company. that incident happened many years ago but i'm just using it to say that having nothing to say will never be the reason why i don't blog. it's not that i got nil to say, in fact i can think of tons, but the time and the logging-in problem didn't allow it.