Monday, May 23, 2005

trip's over

i was back on sat...n i slept for 5 straight hours til it was time for worship practice...today was back to a full day of church, which i love...but the thing i really hate about normalcy is that i have to go back to sch on tuesday...thank god for the vesak day holiday tmr, or else i wud be suffering from severe post-holiday shock...cos i haven't exactly prepared myself for sch yet.

i managed to print out my timetable tmr...prior to that i'd only got to know that i got the modules i wanted, but i still knew nothing bout my timetable since i was on the trip n i forgot to check during the weekend :p...and praise god, there are no 8am classes this sem!!! i don't noe if it's becos it's Year 3 or if it's becos some of the teachers have spoken amongst each other about my repeated absence from 8am classes (go read my previous posts...i wasn't really absent but lateness still counts as that), but i definitely like the thought that i dun have to worry as much about missing classes this sem :).

however, i do have a class that lasts from 5pm-10pm on tuesdays, n yeah, that's kinda draggy...it's my longest and yet my most-wanted class: photojournalism. i don't mind though...becos that means that there's no classes every mon!!! two fantastic firsts in my semester term (they're the ones in bold)...god is really good, heheh. but somehow i have the sneaky feeling that there's something worse to come behind these rose-tinted glasses...something in the form of more work and tighter deadlines perhaps...i dunno.

yeah, back to the trip...first of all, thanks for all who've supported me thru prayer throughout this trip. god has been helping in more ways than one and he has constantly been changing the situation for the better in times when i or the team needed help. really really appreciate each and every one of ur prayers becos they're obviously bearing fruit.

the cold facts of the trip wud be that 50 kids outta 200 accepted christ but behind these statistics are actions of us touching and impacting (i hope) lives of the kids there. and not just the kids...god's been changing us too. personally, i can honestly say he changed my heart and made it able to know what it truly means to forgive. he's also shown me that there is strength in believing and relying on Him and Him alone in every single thing that i do, be it interacting with the team or reaching out to the kids.

i sincerely hope that what i've learnt (these two things especially), i will be able to apply and retain it with me after the trip...cos it's pretty obvious that the true test is what happens after the trip. where do we go? do we continue living our lives as if nothing's happened? or do we choose to live like we've been transformed inwardly toward a greater degree of God's glory?

as for what i was struggling with during the weekend in my last post, well i don't know if it's totally resolved yet or not...but i feel almost completely okay...not so troubled as before. maybe cos things have changed for the better, i dunno. but like i said, the true test will come when the rubber meets the road....wonder how i'll feel then. whatever it is, i do know that i genuinely aim to seek god first and his righteousness before all things.