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read between the lines
hide "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove! I would fly away and be at rest-- I would flee far away and stay in the desert; I would hurry to my place of shelter, far from the tempest and storm." -- Psalm 55: 6-8 finally came across that verse in my "sanctuary" time today. last time i saw it was during the last 'dark age' of my life.and ever since then i've been trying to find it but never did. and today, it found me. just at the appropriate time too. in the today's current lifestyle context, it's like hearing a singer voice the words you're not saying. and they say the bible isn't relevant today. the only difference is, then, i really did feel like running. being an irresponsible citizen (of god). dropping all my duties and bailing. all that and worse. but right now (as in these days), it's more of a temporary need to hide, keeping in mind that i will come back to grim reality. yeah, looks like my resolve (or rather the holy spirit's) is stronger within me to stay grounded here on earth, ever since that friend challenged me to commit to not running away from reality. i'm not even watching movies or involving myself in computer games, though i was seriously tempted to do the former today. amazing. i saw a young man today sitting on a chair with his head clasped in his hands, his eyes (probably teary) hidden beneath the fingers. i hear ya man, i hear ya. loud and clear. another thing on relevance: was listening to live 8's "live" webcast a few mins ago. (sadly, seems like that article in the papers about duran duran performing was wrong.) and a very relevant song came to mind. welcome to my world. yes, yes, i know. it has to be every teenager's teen angst and you-don't-understand-me song. i'm not even a fan of simple plan too cos i think their rock is trashier than linkin park's (oops..no offence you fans), but this song really nails it in its lyrics. and this is my song of relevance tonite. more notes on it after the lyrics. btw since thursday, the time of having each day turn out to be what ODB's daily devotionals talk about seems to be happening again. weird and wonderful would be an apt way to describe it. Welcome To My Life by SIMPLE PLAN Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you? Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming? No, you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt, to feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No, you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more Before your life is over? Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt, to feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life -- i've cut out the bridge cos it's not me right now. and the bit about locking myself in my room, well i wish that were so but since my house leaves no space for real privacy, i have to go out to seek places of refuge. and a comment on the bit "no one's there to save you": not that i don't acknowledge the presence of a loving god. how can i when he keeps (amazingly out of his grace) showing me that he does through ways other than the cross? however, i do associate with the feeling of loss and bleakness that comes with it, if only for the moment. but then god always refreshes me when i am brought to quiet pools of water (psalm 23 i think), away from the routines (read: responsibilities) of this life. god wasn't called the saviour for nothing. it is also there that He opens my eyes to what needs to be seen, there that i am able to think clearly. |
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