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read between the lines
still hanging on....1 more day to break wk yawn yawn yawn....ran across the causeway today. reached the other side sweaty, smelly, greasy-haired but in time to take the bus n not have to "waste money" on taxi. so no scolding from parents. but when i got to class i was bout 20 mins late, which is still within the curfew time, thank god, so i was marked present but late. the lecturer was....man he really pissed me off. he said i strolled into class. yeah rite! i practically ran! n hello, it's not like i took my time to drink tea at the canteen n jus waltz in like that! n i was so stupid as to email him...n he sent an email back retorting that I was supposed to say sorry to him, and I was late for class anyway, I this, I that....basically trying to say it was my fault. what an insensitive jerk.speaking of lecturers, i met one of my 2 all-time favorite lecturers today. man, that relly brightened my day cos i had not seen that lecturer since sch started. if i was still under him, i'm pretty sure he'd still be understanding enuff of my situation to scold me indirectly like that. but yeah well....that's why he's one of my favourites. well one of the reasons why anyway. words words words. how they cut like a knife when they come out all wrong. yesterday my own dg leader (as in leader of my poly's christian cca cell group thingy) let loose this remark that relly pissed me off for quite a few mins. i forgot sth n i told her, n she said with a serious look, "you're always forgetting things." hello, what's that supposed to mean? i can only recall ever telling her i forgot things twice before this, n the second time i forgot she said the exact same words. n this is not the first time i'm getting this: ppl keep exaggerating things. you're always this. you're always that. makes me wonder why i even bothered to be honest enuff to tell her i forgot sth anyway. but whatever. all i noe is, i was quite taken aback when i heard it, n in such serious tones, that i didn't have time to react or say sth in my defence. so i let it go. i'm supposed to anyway. i jus dunno why, but this wk words are actually affecting me. i get angry over words. it's relly unusual i guess....cos most times i'm not so quick to anger. think i've gotta keep on this focusing-on-god thing. mebbe i've had blurry vision because my eyes were half-closed. yesterday's engage booklet: the lost coin....relating to how the unsaved r like the lost coin, n when the coin's found the owner (god) rejoices a lot. n today's one i agree too: "we are accountable!" yes we are. yes i am. accountable to ppl ard me. shud be blessing them n not expecting vice versa. n today i feel i did more to bless others, esp the unsaved. felt at least i did something. but i noe i mus do more. btw, my test on that deejay thing i mentioned is on tmr. i messed up during practice, so i'm kinda stressed n a lil worried that i'll mess up during the actual thing...hopefully not. this is my song list for tmr: 1) EROSION by Switchfoot 2) CHANCE by dc Talk 3) SWEET N LOWDOWN by George Gershwin (filler music, aka. instrumental or non-vocal music to fill up the space in between playing jingles. jingles are short music clip ads.) I'm gonna post the lyrics to the first 2 songs here anyway cos i feel like it. in fact i felt like those were the two chosen songs to play cos god jus put them into my head (n yes, they're among my fave cos of the words n music). hopefully my test will go well tmr. we'll see how. god, please don't let me screw up n help me to finish the programme on time. EROSION by Switchfoot Rain is a bad reminder of everything I don't wanna know Rain is a backseat driver that takes me where I don't wanna go And it looks like the sky is caving in again I'm dry and cracked, the sky goes black And tut, tut, it looks like rain Erosion Oh, Spirit fall like rain on my thirsty soul Erosion Oh, sweet erosion, break me and make me whole The thirstiest grounds can't take the rain My undecided vices washing on down the drain And it looks like the sky is caving in again My heart is cracked, the sky goes black And tut, tut, it looks like rain Oh, Erosion, would You wash away my sins Oh, Erosion, I need a second start again Oh, Erosion, would You break my heart again Oh, Erosion, I am a broken hearted man i relly relly loved chance the second i heard it. music-wise, it was listener friendly. soft but interesting guitar tune as the leading instrument, n i luv it when the drums take over during the intermission. n the words...relly....encouraged me at times, motivated me / knocked some sense into me at others. i've highlighted the words that r relly close to my heart in bold. CHANCE by dc Talk People watching, every life a mystery Sunny faces, but you know the story's incomplete Satisfaction seems a million miles away So I'm moving to another state of mind I'm believing there's no better place or better time Everyday we live, there's a chance to give Every time we speak, there's a chance for peace Everyday we live, there's a chance Little sister, put aside your fear and breathe In the secret, do you hear the voice of heaven (sayin') Come together, hope is stronger than it seems Where you're standing, there's no running out on love Only human, but you've set your eyes on the things above Everyday we live, there's a chance to give Every time we speak, there's a chance for peace Everyday we live, there's a chance A chance for you, a chance for me A chance to serve, in a time of need A chance to live, a chance to tell A chance to lose yourself (for somebody else) |
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