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read between the lines
a miracle? wanted to update this but as God (as opposed to luck) wud have it, the modem was down yesterday. i woke up yesterday and received a sorta miracle in regards to my ad module...but i dunno the full outcome of it yet so i dunno if it's a false hope or sth.my faculty told me that i was allowed to retake the test, which is tmr morning...but i was told it's not for sure that my marks will be counted in yet....i was told that my marks n my letter (i gotta write a letter explaining why i missed the test) will be brought up to the board meeting for them to decide n discuss whether to pass me....so i don't know really. all i noe is, since yesterday nite i realised that i can study like crazy, leave the house early on time, n the questions can be easy, or the teacher can be lenient....but if God does not allow it, i will still fail the module anyway. yeah...had some procrastination issues for way too long n i was beginning to wonder why all my efforts were not working...until yesterday my eyes were opened again to this old truth that it's not my strength or my abilities that enables me to do the things i do, be it study well or get good grades, or even play the piano...it has been God all along. and this other old truth which i lost sight of was also imparted to me: when God speaks, His word does not come back empty-handed. it will come back bearing fruit...n unless God's word and favour and enabling rests upon me to pass this module, i never will. if He speaks and says i will fail, then i will, even though i have taken precautions and made preparations (see above). a jam could happen....the teacher mite mark strictly....i might jus have a blank mind and forget all i memorised....or the board cud jus decide to fail me.... without God, i can do nothing. for "no man can keep alive his own soul..." (psalm 22:29 i think) and i was blind to see that i could. |
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