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Saturday, July 03, 2010

heavy in your arms

i just saw twilight: eclipse and heard the most amazing song at the middle of the credits: heavy in your arms by florence and the machine. why they didn't play this during the movie baffles me -- it's as good as thom yorke's hearing damage effect on the second movie. speaking of which, it was disappointing not to hear thom's voice anywhere in this movie; i thought it was becoming a radiohead-muse trend for twilight movies.

it feels really weird (in that incongruent yet interconnected way) listening to heavy in your arms while reading psalm 139, this week's anchoring scripture in preparation for sunday worship (i know, i know, i haven't really been heaven-focused this week).

"LORD, You have searched me and known me..."

"I was a heavy heart to carry,
My beloved was weighed down..."

"You understand my thoughts from far away..."

"My arms around his neck,
My fingers laced to crown..."

"You observe my travels and my rest..."

"I was a heavy heart to carry,
My feet dragged across ground..."

"You are aware of all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue,
You know all about it, LORD..."

"My love has concrete feet,
My love's an iron ball,
Wrapped around your ankles,
Over the waterfall..."

You have encircled me;
You have placed Your hand on me..."

"I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms
I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms..."

"[This] extraordinary knowledge is beyond me.
It is lofty; I am unable to [reach] it..."

"And is it worth the wait,
All this killing time?
Are you strong enough to stand,
Protecting both your heart and mine?..."

"Where can I go to escape Your Spirit?
Where can I flee from Your presence?
If I go up to heaven, You are there;
if I make my bed in Sheol, You are there..."

"Who is the betrayer?
Who's the killer in the crowd?
The one who creeps in corridors
And doesn't make a sound..."

"Your eyes saw me when I was formless;
all [my] days were written
in Your book and planned
before a single one of them began.
"My love has concrete feet,
My love's an iron ball,
Wrapped around your ankles,
Over the waterfall..."

"My bones were not hidden from You
when I was made in secret..."

"I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms;
"I'm so heavy, heavy
Heavy in your arms..."

"f I live at the eastern horizon
[or] settle at the western limits,
even there Your hand will lead me;
Your right hand will hold on to me..."

"I was a heavy heart to carry
But he never let me down
When he had me in his arms
My feet never touched the ground..."

"Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my concerns..."

"This will be my last confession
'I love you' never felt like any blessing..."

"See if there is any offensive way in me;
lead me in the everlasting way."

"Whispering like it's a secret
Only to condemn the one who hears it
With a heavy heart..."

there came a moment of clarity when i was watching the movie...suddenly it was all so simple what i needed to do. however, it's only a matter of time before my emotions fog up my clear-headedness...but i'll take whatever clarity i can get.