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Sunday, January 23, 2005

what if i stumble?

i decide to put this up since i'm playing this song now n i keep repeating it cos it's getting stuck in my head. it's one of my old favourites, though not as favourite in my list as in my fren's list, who's a fellow hardcore dc talk fan (sadly, these ppl are rare on this side of the world). this fren, he used to keep playing it on the guitar like everytime until it was a bit sickening, hahaha....

i heard the accoustic, "live" version of this first n loved it jus like that....without even knowing, when i found out much later, that the original recorded version sounds way better than the "live" one (of cos lah, since it's got added sound effects like the tapping of the triangle-shaped metal instrument thing we used to learn in primary sch).

n yeah, throughout my years of adolescence here, i've relly found this song to be true, especially the quote rite in front before the song starts (see below). i've had a lot of ppl, including my dad, tell me that christians are hypocrites. n that's sad....cos not everyone is. n the thing is, no one's perfect, we all make mistakes, which is the very essence of this song: what if i stumble? what if i fall, make a mistake, do a wrong? this song speaks of the fear of it.....what's gonna happen if i make a mistake? what will people say about christians in general then, jus because i, as one person, stumble (lyrics: what if i make fools of us all?) ? what happens after that? will god still love me n accept me as i am? (n the answer is, he will. lyrics: You are my comfort and my God)

the lyrics relly rang in my ears when i heard this song becos that was around the same time when i was coming back to god, back in my early teens. n back then.....life was pretty messed up. things were.....let's jus say life wasn't too rosy then. not that it is now, but last time it had more thorns in the root of society. n this song comforted me n assured me that my wrongdoings were forgiven fully, that i need not feel ashamed to come back to my Father. it still does have an effect on me, when needed.

WHAT IF I STUMBLE?

by dc Talk

"The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today
Is Christians who acknowledge Jesus with their lips,
Then walk out the door and deny Him by their lifestyle.
That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable."

Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simply serenade
for things I must afford?

You can jumble them together,
my conflict still remains
Holiness is calling
in the midst of courting fame.

Cause I see the trust in their eyes
Though the sky is falling
They need Your love in their lives
Compromise is calling

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
(You never turn in the heat of it all)
What if I stumble, what if I fall?

Father please forgive me
for I can not compose
The fear that lives within me
or the rate at which it grows.

If struggle has a purpose
on the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses
will leave a deadly scar?

Do they see the fear in my eyes?
(Are they so revealing?)
This time I cannot disguise
(all the doubt I'm feeling)

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble?
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that

I hear You whispering my name (You say)
"My love for You will never change" (never change)

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all?
Will the love continue when my walk becomes a crawl?
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You are my comfort, and my God

Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?