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read between the lines
a date with Love itself / Himself today has to be the best valentine for me ever. never have i felt so in love and so...glad on valentine's day. i got a date with the best guy you can imagine: i got a date with GOD! honestly, today was so cool....i saw couples all over singapore n stuff, n i can honestly say that today when i saw them i felt just as loved (no wait, loved way even more!) from the One above. it was so nice...but i'm trying not to bank on feelings but on faith this time.it didn't relly start out that way today, actually. i had like 4 hrs of sleep only, n 2 days of continuous rushing to finish 2 papers due today (killer double whammy!), n i was relly pissed when i found out i cudn't hand them in on time. everything that cud go wrong with the printers went wrong today. i went to 4 different places just to get my notes printed out. by that time i was already one hour past deadline. ah well. i cursed and i sweared....not very patient or obedient of me....n i was thinking about how bad things were (my marks getting minused off, i mean. cos i worked my ass off for the thing) n trying n praying to forget it all now that it's over. n then after that for dinner i just...felt like i had to be alone with god. i also felt i had to treat myself. i ended up going to a coffee house i've never gone to, n finding out that the coffee totally sucks (according to the description...."concentrated, black.."...euugh), but still managing to find an alternative place to spend time with god. but before that, the treat: vanilla ice-cream! man, oh man, i've never had so much fun in months since my 6-week cough happened, cos it kinda killed some of my appetite for ice-cream. but today, it was just fun, sitting on the green grass, looking at the crescent moon, licking my favourite dessert. n after that (i did not expect to find it but i did) i found this relly hidden-away place in the spot i was having my tea at. not too hidden away for bad hats to attack me, but i mean hidden from public view / from the ppl walking in. n i found this place so...free n cosy, that i started praying out loud n settling down comfortably. yeah, mebbe all these things stimulating my senses tonite made me seem all the more happier today, but the thing is, i left the place feeling relly happy. n it's funny, but on the bus back i met my fren's friend. i don't relly know him, but somehow or other we jus end up bumping into each other. somewhere during our conversation he asked me sth like if i was "among the dateless this valentine's". n i jus naturally responded that i'm taken, by god, n what better date can i ask for than love itself (after all, god equals love, rite?). he seemed not too okay with admitting that he was, in his own words, "dateless". i said, "hey, god's looking for another partner too...he freely extends the invitation...so why don't you?" he replied "i freely decline." then awkward silence for like, 3 seconds or sth. so i changed the subject. hmm. i mean, there's a god out there who loves you so much more than anyone on earth and you choose to reject true love? think someone needs intercession. not that i'm judging or anything, but it wud be nice if the whole world knew what true love really was about anyway. i jus saw the grammy's earlier (2nd telecast). kanye west is relly cool....he raps about jesus like he's doing hip hop for nelly (the "clean" version). very very cool. think i might keep an eye out for him. n it was relly touching when he got the grammy, n he was lost for words for awhile, before saying these first few words, "when i got the accident....". he said when he got the accident, he didn't realise death as much as that time, n that made him realise that as long as god gives us life to breathe, let's use it for His full benefit (he didn't say it directly, but i got the gist of it). hmm. gospel rap. living for jesus. hmm. |
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