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read between the lines
growing pains (in christ) it's been a packed past week for me. near-debarrments and nearly-failed tests. work n issues...jus filling my head.still the same this wk...but i rest in the knowledge that school is ending in 3 wks! aha! i cannot fricking wait.....but i bet everyone else says the same thing too. after all, this is supposed to be the toughest sem....but that's true, then we've made it past the hardest part and there'll jus be lighter loads of work to look for in future! :)i dunno why but i jus feel so upbeat now....mebbe it's switchfoot's first album blasting up my ear...or mebbe i'm not thinking about my problems now...which has not always been the case. i was down....like certain times, the last one being this evening as i had my usual chat with God....but hey, at least i noe i'm growing in the Lord thru the pain, n not jus remaining stagnant in my "happy" state. i was reminded of one thing i realised a few wks back...the thing with me is, sure, i do lay my problems down at the feet of christ, but i tend to come back and take them back again...hahaha. i can't believe i'm laughing now! i was crying jus a few hrs ago....but whatever. this is all temporary. and hey, it is a privilege to know i'm being moulded into being more christ-like every day thru these pains. and god has been great to me....i mean, it hurts to take up my cross n lose everything i love in this world, but it was never relly mine in the first place to lose anyway. cos over these past few days, the sacrifices i've had to make, to lose this life....they've started to resurface again. and it pains me everytime i've stuck to my guns and said no to these treasures of the world when they've appeared. i dun even noe how i do it, but i jus do it....i believe it's the Spirit leading me....but then i feel sorta bad after that...cos i'm struggling to keep my focus on god n not on what i jus lost. today i was at borders, jus going thru the books aimlessly when i spotted clay aiken's autobiography lying on where it shouldn't have been lying on....on a bunch of calendars....n of cos, me being a clay aiken fan, started flipping thru. n clay of cos, being a jesus freak, wrote about his whole life in connection to god, n so the first lift quote that i came across was....wow....it was what i needed to hear. Exodus 14: 14 -- "The LORD will fight for you. You need only to be still." whoa. i didn't even know that was in the bible...or mebbe i knew but i forgot about it.i've been listening back to dc talk again...n i'm falling in love with their songs again...cos i remember the emotions i felt as i went thru the songs....n they're part of what's been bringing me back to god. n as always, i'm seeing new truths to their songs again after re-listening to them. somehow there's always something new to learn or pick up from in ccm songs....n that's the beauty of that....the hidden wisdom, if u read between the lines, if the Spirit opens ur eyes n makes u receptive to certain words. and as usual, the complimentary song that is relevant to my current situation.....i wud've put dc talk up, but since switchfoot is all i can hear in my ears now that i'm playing it, here's one of their songs from their first album. pretty good effort for a debut album. LIFE AND LOVE AND WHY by Switchfoot Life and love and why Child, adult, then die All of your hoping and All of your searching For what? Ask me for what am I Living or what gives me strength That I'm willing to die for? Take away from me This monstrosity 'Cause my futile thinking's Not gonna solve Nothing tonight Ask me for what am I Living or what gives me strength That I'm willing to die for Could it be this? Could this be bliss? Could it be all that I Ever had missed? Could it be true? Can life be new? And can I be used? Can I be used? Give me a reason for life And for death And a reason for Drowning while I hold My breath Something to laugh at, a reason to cry With everyone hopeless And hoping for something To hope for Yeah, with something To hope for Could it be true? Can life be new? Could it be all that I am Is in You? Could it be this? Could it be bliss? Can it be You? Can it be You? |
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