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read between the lines
humbled today was a humbling experience for me...especially tonite when i gave myself up to god. the stress....cannot take it sometimes. i mean, i noe i mus persevere n stuff, but sometimes it feels jus so easy to give up, y'know? u feel like running again, instead of braving the storm. n i was in conflict with myself initially, as in my feelings were opposed to god's, and i was initially unsure of what to tell god: talk to him the way i actually feel or the way i shud be feeling? but i'm glad the Father is not a politically correct god. so i don't need to give him "correct" answers, or feel the pressure to, like when i'm with ppl n stuff. (not that i actually do so....i try my best to be true to myself n god, or i'll feel relly bad when the day's over. but yeah, i do feel the pressure and that creates conflict within me n a sort of weariness of having to watch what i say sometimes.)tonite this song best describes me....n i keep playing it over and over in my head, even when i've long turned my boom box off. this was what the writer, jon foreman, had to say in regards to it....n i totally agree with him, not just in what he said below but also in what he said in his song (the words i've enlarged are the words i can most relate to tonite): "I wrote this song near the end of my 24th year on this planet. Wherever we run, wherever the sun finds us when he rises, we remain stuck with ourselves. That can be overwhelming. Sometimes I feel like my soul is polluted with politicians, each with a different point of view. With all 24 of them in disagreement, each voice is yelling to be heard. And so I am divided against myself. I feel that I am a hypocrite until I am ONE, when all of the yelling inside of me dies down. I've heard that the truth will set you free. That's what I'm living for: freedom of spirit. I find unity and peace in none of the diversions that this world offers. But I've seen glimpses of truth and that's where I want to run." -John Foreman, on "Twenty-Four"
TWENTY-FOUR by Switchfoot Twenty-four oceans, twenty-four skies, Twenty-four failures in twenty-four tries. Twenty-four finds me in twenty-fourth place, With twenty-four dropouts at the end of the day. (chorus) Life is not what I thought it was Twenty-four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You And I'm not who I thought I was Twenty-four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You. Twenty-four reasons to admit that I'm wrong With all my excuses still twenty-four strong. But see I'm not copping out Not copping out, not copping out When You're raising the dead in me Oh, I am the second man Oh, I am the second man now Oh, I am the second man now And You're raising these twenty-four voices With twenty-four hearts With all of my symphonies in twenty-four parts But I want to be one today Centered and true So I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You And You're raising the dead in me Oh, I am the second man Oh, I am the second man now Oh, I am the second man nowAnd You're raising the dead in me I want to see miracles To see the world change I wrestled the angel For more than a name For more than a feeling For more than a cause I'm singing And You're raising the dead in meSpirit take me up in arms with You twenty-four voices With twenty-four hearts Twenty-four symphonies in twenty-four parts And You're raising the dead in meLife is not what I thought it was Twenty-four hours agoBut see I'm not copping out Not copping out, not copping out.... note: the last bit bout "I wrestled the angel for more than a name, for more than a feeling, for more than a cause" refers to when jacob stuggled with god (who was in the form of a man) in the dirt n refused to let go until god blessed him in Genesis 32:23-30. i didn't know it myself until i realised it a few days ago, even more so tonite. and i so feel the same way, even about the "i am the second man" bit...tonite i re-learned a lesson in humility, n my pride n ego is something i relly have to keep in check or it'll affect my walk with god. |
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