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read between the lines
pressure-cooker hmm...events....last wk was....a few surprises, besides your usual melancholy fare. this wk it's.....super duper busy. 6 projects due, 3 due on fri, frantic rushes for grp meetings that don't always go well....and for one of the projects, it looks like i'm gonna fail...i'm gonna find out more bout it tmr....and the worst part is, it's not even my fault. it's a group project gone wrong...talk about choosing the wrong partners to work with. well, not all of them deserve the blame for our downfall....but it's really sad that because of some of them, the whole group goes down with them. i don't wanna fail advertising! wahaha.....[that's tears btw, not laughter]but i think somehow i'll pass the module, even if i fail this project. hopefully my individual marks will be able to make up for it. and for another project, i have totally no idea how to go about doing it....and it's due friday! grp project...the teacher is very vague, and she's very...erm, insecure, so no one dared ask her something as rude-sounding (to her sensitive mind) as "can you tell us how to do this assignment?"....oh well. relying on classmates is, er...i dunno lar. so far from what they've told me, i don't really follow them. i only understand halfway. must relly pray....we're meeting up tmr for a full nite, which i might end up staying over for, i dunno, so hopefully tmr we'll get to sort things out. as for yet another project, wahahaha....i can't seem to find an interviewee for my radio test, because it's during a time when everyone else has classes. i need anybody, somebody, please! actually i found someone, who erm, is doing it because he stood me up on monday for two fricking hours and in the end became a no-show, but he did the "broken promises" act again today so i'm really beginning to doubt his...reliability. who's to say he won't turn up on time during my test? but i can't seem to get anyone else...i'm still looking and looking, praying for an answer to show up. and yes, as u can guess from the bold print, i was pretty pissed at being stood up...becos to make things worse, class got cancelled so i ended a bit early, which means i waited so much longer in sch....n then finally he tells me he can't make it, after confirming with me previously that he could. it was relly....trying....to practice christlikeness and not swear and practice forgiveness. and the thing is, i was relly disappointed in him....becos i hadn't expected a person of his...calibre to do something as inconsiderate like that. but oh well...gotta constantly be reminded that nobody's perfect all the time. and today, well well well, of all days i just had to stub my toe and cut the skin and chip part of my toenail off while climbing stairs....and i wasn't even rushing this time! i mean, at least for the other 2 times i can understand cos (1) i was late for class and (2) i was rushing, but today i totally wasn't....but i think it had something to do with my sleepiness. i had the usual stupid early class today, so i had to get up early again, and the nite before i was up late doing work that cud've been done had i not been stood up (ok ok i'll get over it already), so naturally i was tired enough to warrant a deep sleep in the bus. no, i did not wake up on dunearn road this time, which is what happens when you oversleep and miss your stop, but i admit my eyes were rather out of focus and blurry when i stumbled out of the bus. i climbed the stairs up, as usual, and i think i must've missed a step, cos my foot slipped, and my sandals tripped me up....and then i fell forward. thank god no cuts elsewhere, and thank god i didn't fall backward, where, if i did, i might not be sitting here today typing this, but still....the skin near my toe started bleeding. the only aid was the self-service first aid kit at the student centre. and the only thing they had for cuts was some iodine-coloured thing. good thing i brought my nail clipper...i bought it last year when i found my fingernails were constantly getting chipped from being in unfortunate situations (and crashing your hands hard on the piano each week doesn't help either, but i'm not complaining cos that's my ministry)....so today i used it to detach the part of the toenail which got chipped. thank god as well this time's toenail chip wasn't as bad as the last one, as in it didn't bleed even though it went a little past the cuticle. and that was all that sustained me as i hobbled around school and lecture theatres and customs till i got back. and i got back late tonite summore...not as late as yesterday, but late enuff. sigh. i'm wondering how to get around s'pore for the next few days, esp tmr when i'm supposed to meet my grp at my fren's home which is quite a distance away from sch. it's a miracle my toenail was not smashed by someone in the bus or customs today....and i'm gonna keep praying it continues. but i know god's testing me thru all this....and i can't say that i've passed with flying colours, but i'm learning everyday to try to work towards that...a better me, or shud i say a better model of christ. i am humbled everyday...gotta keep my ego in check anyway, cos when it pops up it relly gets in the way of things. |
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