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Saturday, April 16, 2005

disturbed

it's another product of my thoughts..not a song but a poem.

DISTURBED

by jessica
i'm disturbed by your behavior
tell me how you live your lifestyle?
is it you, oh friend, who used to stand so pure
to fight for the right freedom,
to come into His marvelous light?

are you friend or are you foe?
i cannot tell,
you make it clear not.
all i know is what i see
and what you show me.

what happened in between?
how did you lose the battle?
how did precious ore become ash,
how did the faithful become unfaithful?
was there something i could've done
to stop you falling down into your big black hole?

why have the eyes that were once opened
closed to readily away
from the truth and the light
why has the soul so readily returned
to its selfish desires and allowed itself
to be envoloped by its inner demons?

was it because we did not pray enough for you,
was it that i did not watch you close enough,
or was it that you were meant to be judas?

are you gone forever?
i cannot tell,
you make it clear not.
all i know is what i see
and what He'll show me.